This whole situation sucks. That in itself is a massive understatement. I just want my best friend to be better and for life to get back to normal. I used to always be the guy that showed compassion via the opposite method (e.g. Craig if you do not get better I am going to stick my foot in your ass). Believe you-me, I had that conversation with him on multiple phone calls. I still want to say it because in a way if I could, it would imply Craig has/had a silly little cold that will just go away... That was what I thought was happening when he told me he was tossing chunks for a few days... Little did he tell me or I knew, about a week later, that it had continued in his absence of calling. I just assumed he got all better. Cancer was not even a thought. So now we are where we are. I call my best friend and ask him how he is doing and I know it sucks. He doesn't have to tell me anything. I can tell from his voice. Sometimes he sounds normal and then other times he is tired. And, coming from Craig, if you have known him most of his life, is not abnormal (wow commas). So now I just want to tell him I'm going to kick his ass if he does not get better, but I cannot. I feel for the immensity of the situation in front of him and the rest of the Lawler family. I cannot demean this beast of crap that grows in side of him because now I have been touched closely by the shit known as cancer and I sadly respect it in it's adept skill at whittling at my best friend. So now I do not want to kick his ass, I want him to survive so that I can have the pleasure and ability to continually threaten and possibly kick his ass in the future.
Fight on my bro! Love ya man!
-Stephen
just read this to craig, and i think he got a bit teary-eyed (as did I). ;) looks like you'll have two in that ass-kickin line now, steve. thanks for writing. glad he has you in his life. glad we all do.
ReplyDeleteHolly North passed this website on to many of us SHS grads today. I started reading the posts but got up and looked through all my old SHS Swimming Picture Albums before continuing. I spent some time thinking of our years of swimming together and then when Diane joined us. I have this really funny picture of me shaving Craig's legs before Conference one year. There doesn't seem to be the perfect thing to say, so I'll do the best I can. I haven't stayed in touch, as many high school buddies don't, but Craig was an awesome buddy then and I can tell he grew into an awesome man. Diane, you sound like you've grown into a pretty awesome woman, too. Now for the part you have heard a million times but I'm saying with complete commitment: Your family is in my prayers. Hey, my Dad's a pastor. That may carry some weight!
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