Jill, Erin and Diane have all mentioned our efforts to hold on to moments with Craig. I burn certain moments into my memory, repeating events over and over in my head, hoping to hang on to the details. One such event happened yesterday, during one of many difficult conversations with the palliative care team. I attempted to ask the team an emotional question about the effect removing TPN from Craig’s regimen would have on his prognosis. I started to tear up as I asked the question and soon felt Craig reach for my hand and hold it tight, giving it a squeeze. I took strength from the gesture and was blown away by his attempt to give comfort, even in the midst of his own overwhelming circumstances.
It’s hard for me to express how lucky I feel that Craig is a part of my life. He is an amazing, intelligent, loving, funny, romantic, talented, handsome, charming man. And that list of adjectives doesn’t come close to accurately describing the person I have come to know. I wouldn’t trade the time I have shared with him for anything in the world. It’s not enough, but I’m more than glad to have experienced it. Here’s to making the most of the time that we have.
Emily
Emily I hope you know just how much of an angel you are. You seem like you have been a fixture in this family for years. Your love for Craig is inspiring and illustrates the amazing character you have. I know how hard it will be for you in the months to come. You are a blessing in Craig's life.
ReplyDeleteEmily,
ReplyDeleteYou have so much strength,love and understanding it is amazing. I liked you so much the minute I met you and thought what a blessing you are for C and all the Lawler family. Thank you for being the person you are . I know your parents are very proud of you.
Love
Aunt Donna
Emily, it was a pleasure meeting you in Oklahoma. Craig is very lucky to have you in his life, the support and love you show for him emulates a love of a couple far older who may have spent 50 yrs together. I guess you two have spent a life time together in a condensed form. Please remember that you are family forever, and thank you.
ReplyDeleteUncle Bruce
You are lucky to have had this time with Craig and they are ALL lucky to have had this time to get to know you. I just wish the circumstances were different for everyone involved. :(
ReplyDeleteI wish I had memories of Craig to share but I only knew him as Diane's brother and an occasional guest in spinning. I remember one class in fact that was all Lawlers. :) You don't see that every day.
Emily,
ReplyDeleteWe, too, want you to know how quickly we became so fond of you. Thank you for all you do for Craig, Diane, Jill , Erin and Jim. Though I know you give of yourself willingly and wouldn't be any different, you probably don't realize how truly special you are.
Love,
Aunt Joan and Alison